My hamster died today I miss him so much I can't believe he died...he was already 2 years old..the average life span for dwarf hamsters...but we thought he would still be alive..I cried so much when I was packing him up. I didn't know if he was alive when I saw him I poked him with his chew toy and he did fight with it like he usually do he was running short of breath...so i went up to wash my hands and grab gloves to pick him up. I poked him he stopped moving , so i was going to pick up and he started moving..I was so happy he was still alive but that was short and he stopped moving again. So I just stayed with him until he passed away...I cried when i started cleaning everything...and packing him up..
( In Memory of Teddy )

Well last night was fun, but to lazy to update so..........I copied juliana's xanga post. We didn't get drunk, it's just a little stuff. No hard liquor, we know our limits. Honestly it wasn't that much.

Looks like derick and me have the same stalker.

dreamli21's LJ stalker is iluffddr!

iluffddr is stalking you because you got better results for the 'acronym' thing than them. They are also leaving anonymous abuse on your journal!

gona stay in Santa Cruz until i graduate....then if i decide to continue school then go to state

I really want to ask you all is should I transfer to SFSU my third year for college??? I honestly dont like Santa Cruz too much, SORRY >_____<

POSITIVES:
no trouble go back and forth
can go straight to fin-aid office in the summer calling in to SC sux much

i dont know what i really want to major in soo~ i won't say which place is more suitable for what i want to study

NEGATIVES:
transfering schools and reapplying, but of course SFSU doesn't require an essay in the application so still debating...

AND SLIGHTLY OFF BEAT: Another positive is that I can keep an eye on Tony's studies...because he graduates in April 2006 and he plans on continuing school.

haha it's funny to say I know the viable girl...haha...but the catch is you all know her too...but wow her product is pretty popular i want to 2 chinese medicine stores and all in which i saw her poster or her product that was suprising....and plus of of course other ones i passed by also have it...



and haha i was looking at hi5.com ... cuz gigi invited me to join...and let see her's what gigi had to say about her product (w/ edit by me)...

Do you want your better looking skin? Do you want to be in good health? Do you want millions of men or women chasing u all around like they're your slave. Come buy my health product and you will very surprised at the results.



Go check out their site too, it's um http://viable.com.hk

hey derick, remember my birthday did you get a sample of the health product too??

So I'm finally on livejournal didn't do much but I'm glad i am losing weight...since the last time I went on the scale, i cried soo much about my weight soo now i'm excercising..dont worry I still eat..if I dont Tony's gona kill me and plus I'm not really trying to go on a diet, just excercising for my health.

Oh yesterday, my dad came back from China baring presents haha...some of the clothes are so cute. Some are kinda =P but it's ok...and some of the presents my mom got she gave to me cuz she complained it was not her like a pink crystal/power bead bracelelt thing. I like it because it reminds me of DNA lol it's cute...and finally got one new icon..I was bored

Man today gona hang out with Tony...I threw a tantrum at him again yesterday...I think I look kinda cute today...i'm trying to go for a hong kong look hehe yeah you can tell i'm pretty bored. I need something to do. I still got no financial aid so i'm kind of worried too...BAHH...cant wait until i find out...shoot i'm suppose to call financial aid office...nah...i'll call tmr...damn i should get a bite to eat before i faint I woke up late and haven't eaten yet.

My stomach hurts so much.........I want to go out today...but now for sure I can't =[ Today Gigi is headed to LA and me was gona go out with Tony after he's done working but I dont think it's possible now.....I am hinting for him to buy me chocolate haha cuz I never like asking for something but I dont think he'll get it until haha maybe later when he reads this XD he knows my password too XD my friend leilani turns 20 today, haha that means tony is turning 21 soon and me i'm gona turn 20 in january =O that was quick but I aint regretting anything that happened this year and how time went by so quick.

This morning woke up, ate some noodles, derick calls, I'm to sick to head to serramonte, so I head to my bed and lied there for awhile then went and soak in the bathtub hopefully make myself feel a little better, it helped a bit but then my stomach hurts again and now I'm just sitting in front of this computer cramping and feeling sick......I think I should eat lunch now or Tony's gona get mad at how I dont take care of myself...haha and I really should get mad at myself for not caring about my body...SHAME SHAME...cuz yesterday I was out with Tony's mom and I didn't eat lunch at all, only had breakfast and I had the hugest headache before dinner...when Tony got back to his house he got kinda upset.worried duno how to express his emotion but then he told me I should eat on time...I'm like I will...sooo right now I should grab something to eat....

A FATHER PASSING BY HIS SON'S BEDROOM WAS ASTONISHED TO SEE THE BED WAS NICELY MADE AND EVERYTHING WAS PICKED UP.
THEN HE SAW AN ENVELOPE PROPPED UP PROMINENTLY ON
THE CENTER OF THE BED. IT WAS ADDRESSED, "DAD"
WITH THE WORST PREMONITION, HE OPENED THE ENVELOPE
AND READ THE LETTER WITH TREMBLING HANDS:
DEAR DAD,
IT IS WITH GREAT REGRET AND SORROW THAT I'M WRITING
THIS. I HAD TO ELOPE WITH MY NEW GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE I WANTED
TO AVOID A SCENE WITH MOM AND YOU.
I'VE BEEN FINDING REAL PASSION WITH BARBARA AND SHE
IS SO NICE EVEN WITH ALL HER PIERCING, TATTOOS, AND HER TIGHT MOTORCYCLE CLOTHES.
BUT IT'S NOT ONLY THE PASSION, DAD - SHE'S PREGNANT AND BARBARA ASSURES ME THAT WE WILL BE VERY HAPPY.
EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T CARE FOR HER SINCE SHE IS SO MUCH OLDER
THAN I AM, SHE ALREADY OWNS A TRAILER IN THE WOODS AND HAS A
STACK OF FIREWOOD ENOUGH FOR THE WHOLE WINTER.
SHE WANTS TO HAVE MANY MORE CHILDREN WITH ME AND
THAT'S NOW ONE OF MY DREAMS TOO.
BARBARA TAUGHT ME THAT MARIJUANA DOESN'T REALLY HURT ANYONE
AND WE'LL BE GROWING IT FOR OURSELVES AND TRADING IT WITH HER
FRIENDS FOR ALL THE COCAINE AND ECSTASY WE NEED.
IN THE MEANTIME, WE PRAY THAT SCIENCE WILL FIND A CURE FOR AIDS
SO THAT BARBARA CAN GET BETTER; SHE SURE DESERVES IT!!
DON'T WORRY, DAD, I'M 15 YEARS OLD NOW AND I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE
OF MYSELF. SOMEDAY I'M SURE WE'LL BE BACK TO VISIT SO YOU CAN GET TO KNOW YOUR GRANDCHILDREN.

YOUR SON, JOHN





P.S. DAD, NONE OF THIS IS TRUE. I'M OVER AT BILLY'S HOUSE. I JUST WANTED TO REMIND YOU THAT THERE ARE WORSE THINGS IN LIFE THAN MY REPORT CARD WHICH IS IN MY DESK CENTER DRAWER.

I LOVE YOU!


PS:CALL WHEN IT'S SAFE FOR ME TO COME HOME

Today is senior exhibtions and unfortunately I cant go =( still in Santa Cruz

This made my day

  ;

hehe was browsing and found the boy is mines song, the one with brandy and monica, well this one is with hyori lee and lee soo young hehe cool...

click here to dl

Found this amusing:
( Girls' English )
( Guy's English )

i'm having a bad day....

my keyboard is busted, using njstar to type. this is sad.....no it's down to the q-key, the shift key, the2-key, alt-key, spacebar and the ctrl-key that doesn't work. which means i cant use the @ symbol either damn it's taking me a long time to type this......

It's Jennie's and Martha's Birthday today. Happy Birthday. Today is my final got to finish reviewing stuff. Going to keep this short.

HOLY SH~~~~~~~~~NAP!!! I PASSED WITH FLYNG COLORS I was so nervous in class..I was shaking.....and breathing hecka hard..but man i passed with distinguished too....so pleased with myself man i hated myself back when I didn't pass it in the fall but now a little bit more happy. This shows I work hard even though I had writer's block so many times.

ARGHHHHH......I feel so alone for some reason =(

I hate myself right know and I don't know why?